9 days in of struggling to walk, been housebound for two days. Dying to just know what this is :(

Perfect morning

I wish more than anything I could go back to my 15 year old self and stop the beginnings of bulimia and anorexia and just shake myself by the shoulders and shout “do you want to be dealing with the repercussions of this in 8 years time???”

I have been completely recovered for two years but my body is still paying the price. I can’t digest certain foods, I have low iron constantly, and now it’s looking like I might have osteoarthritis and I’m undergoing heaps of tests because I currently can’t walk more than 100m without being in chronic pain.

This is fucked.
Don’t starve yourself. You’ll always think you aren’t as sick as you are.
And you’ll regret it more than anything in your life.

Made my girlfriend some cute little notes using the cut outs from the back of my kikki k planner.
☺️

Self indulgent days off